i thought i saw myself in you. i dove in thinking we had a connection. i already had love jump started by interacting with a younger version of you who ended up being too much fire to control. in the mean time i was connected with other vampires. all the while i continued to0 dive myself ijnto meth and confusion, alone, loss of my home and marriage i begin to get tossed from one rip current to another. in fact, i start surrounding myself with people i know open the door for me to be bad to myself. everyone. by design.
now that ive felt the items of the physical stripped away like an asteroid on its entry into
earth’s atmosphere, burning at impossible temperatures, then, finally, smashing into the solid structure of reality below, shattered to a million little pieces.
starting over my good intentions exist but still i attach myself. afraid to the be the center or orbit but destined to be the fiery magnetic that is the center of all. do i reach out and let it burn through me, change me, or do i hide like the others, settling for less when im capable of more. misled, i strumbled through much of life asking these same questions.